As expected, didn’t get into the acapella group, and why am i not disappointed at all? Cos i didn’t expect to get in, told them that i was here just for fun..heh..o well

This is a boring weekend, been holed up @ home so far reading harry potter n playing cm4..my juventus is finally make some progress, after i changed the formation to a defensively more sound 3-2-3-1-1 (for non soccer ppl, this means 3 defenders, 2 defensive midfielders sitting in front of the defence, 3 midfielders, 1 attacking midfield and 1 striker)

Comments bout harry potter and the order of the phoenix so far, have read bout 200 pages and all i can say is that harry seems to be in a lot more shit than usual, ppl have been telling me how dark the book is and i’m starting to see y..i think if he survives this book, (duh! he has to survive if not JK Rowling mei2 xi4 chang4 le4) he would probably wind up into a character that is more..neutral..as in in the middle of good n evil, as opposed to him being good now only My computer speakers are still down, and i need an ac/dc adaptor to test..anybody got one, pls email me? if not i would have to spend 20 bucks to buy one, or top up another 60 to get new speakers…analogue ones that is..my current set up is DIGITAL leh!!

Was doing stats tutorial, got 2 ways of doing it, either use calculator or computer…former’s way too tedious..dunno have to calculate how many shit…n the latter’s way too ez…just key in the values n click..all ur ans come out…together with the histogram and the regression line…then aka hp style “Print It”, u got ur solutions on paper ready to be handed up… Am i in my own world or izzit just that the world’s becoming bipolar? everything’s either so negative or so positive…

Been thinking less bout amy, that’s ah..good i hope? but i think this improvement will last till the next time i see her…think i must “train” my frens to spot her, and if i’m with them @ that time, they are to quietly usher me away w/o letting me noe that she’s nearby…

Looking fwd to tuition later, cos today is pay day! haha! n o yah…nua soccer with the guys…S23 Rulez!!~

The Scientist By Coldplay

Come up to meet you, tell you I’m sorry You don’t know how lovely you are I had to find you Tell you I need you Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets And ask me you questions Oh let’s go back to the start Running in circles Coming in tales Heads are a science apart

Nobody said it was easy It’s such a shame for us to part Nobody said it was easy No one ever said it would be this hard Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing At numbers and figures Pulling your puzzles apart Questions of science Science and progress Do not speak as loud as my heart Tell me you love me Come back and haunt me Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles Chasing tails And coming back as we are Nobody said it was easy Oh it’s such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy No one ever said it would be so hard I’m going back to the start

Told amanda to read my diary just now, and she read my last entry about amy..i think she got the idea i was trying to put to her.. This sucks, i’m getting very bad with my putting-fwd of ideas to ppl, but i think she can find someone better, dun need to rely on someone who can’t forget another someone… I can’t go on like this with amanda i realised, neither here nor there, and even though both of us say we are happy with current situation, i dunno about her but i dun really feel @ ease.. Somewhat i feel restricted by an invisible rope and my heart, i think there’s no space for anyone else for now..

I think i’m going mad, n to think that i max need 3 mths to get over her, considering we’ve been together for like a month? This has been a really long 4 mths and i’m nowhere near success. To think of it, it’s slightly more than 5 mths from the day we got attached, 4 mths since we broke up.. now, 28th August 2003: i still have our foto in my wallet.. I think she would have deleted all the fotos we took with her 7250 from her fone.. There’s nobody to replace her now, and the me now thinks that nobody can…

Really wonder want to call her or not…worried she may not pick up, and even if she does i may not noe wat to say too.. the me ppl see now is the one who seems very happy n positive, and active in uni, but sometimes i really wonder if this is just me putting up a strong front?

One of my favourite songs, as made popular again in Austin Powers 2: The Spy who Shagged Me

“I’ll never fall in love again” by Elvis Costello and Burt Bacharach What do you get When you fall in love? A girl with a pin To burst your bubble That’s what you get For all your trouble I’ll never fall in love again I’ll never fall in love again What do you get When you kiss a girl You get enough germs To catch pneumonia After you do, She’ll never phone ya I’ll never fall in love again I’ll never fall in love again Don’t tell me What it’s all about ‘cause I’ve been there And I’m glad I’m out Out of those chains Those chains that bind you That is why I’m here To remind you What do you get When you fall in love? You get enough tears To fill an ocean That’s what you get For your devotion. I’ll never fall in love again. I’ll never fall in love again. What do you get When you fall in love? You only get lies And pain and sorrow So far at least Until tomorrow I’ll never fall in love again I’ll never fall in love again

No news bout sailing comm. yet, i think no hope liaoz lah, but i guess i’m taking it pretty well.. just abit pissed that they never bother to inform the ppl who failed to make it

did a crazy thing today, was outside central library @ 5pm when i saw the ad for resonance, this acapella group. They’re conducting auditions and dunno y i decided to go…sang a stanza from Come What May, n think i did myself justice..haha! mabbe can get in..muahaha!

Was havign lunch with ziwei n supposedly huifang too, but she decided to sit elsewhere with her frens cos way too crowded @ arts canteen.. when i was Q-ing up @ muslim stall, i was wondering wat’s the possibility of running into amy here, and when i turned my head i saw her.. !!! can’t believe my luck, and i dunno to classify it as good or bad…i turned away immed, not daring to look @ her…later when i walked past her, she either didn’t see me or chose not to see me… For the rest of the day i was thinking bout her, incl @ nite, when i logged onto IVLE, i was wondering wat kind of modules she would take, n hence took a look @ the rosters of Introduction to Economic Analysis and Intro to Psychology, n her name was in both of this… damn! i had the option of doing that econs module…

CEntral library today, dunno y i kept glancing ard trying to see if i can spot her cos the other time i saw her in libary on a wednesday afternoon…but wat good would i get out of seeing her? only to make her look away n me getting heartache again…

I dunno y this is taking me so long, as in to get over her.. It’s like so far, i’ve only managed to cover the memories with a thin coat of soluble paint, that gets washed off each time i see her or something or somewhere that i can connect with her….this sucks big time man….

Dear Ms Pang,

Thank you,

At the crossroads of one of the biggest decisions i have to make in nus, deciding whether or not to continue running for sci club, after been told during my interview that i can’t be in sailing comm. @ the same time.. This is damn disappointing i tell u, sailing has been something i wanna do for a long time, but then i find it really hard to step down from elections

Pros of not running: 1. Alot more time for myself 2. More time for rovers club n sailing 3. Still would be able to help in sci club if i want to 4. Can go back serve army in june

Cons: 1. How to step down w/o losing face? haha! 2. Lose out on eca points? 3. Izzit a loss to myself or to the club? Another alternative would be i give up sports director post and run for special projects..hmm..i dunno…i think i have to decide tml or fri..sucky!

Hey, very long never update this…many things have happened since last tues… the most impt one is that i’ve dropped my govt n politics of sg module…the reading load is very heavy, but i think the worst part is that the lecturers really cannot make it..i dun think it’s gonna be a big loss…heh.. ordered my laptop too, ibm R40, coming this friday! yay! got to thank ziwei for being guarantor..dun worry lah brother, wun have pig head outside ur place in 4 yrs time (even if have, always remember that it’s super nutritious =Pp) Handed in my nomination form for sci club elections, got to thank ppl here again, namely richmond and dexter for nominating and 2nding me respectively… got to go for a briefing this tues, which clashes with my geopolitics lecture and rovers agm…o well…i think i just go after my lecture…rovers..ah..since i not running it’s ok…just meet romelas for supper mabbe =) went sailing camp this wk end, and i realised i still get sea sick very easily..puked during the 1st time out…=Pp but i think i still wanna learn leh…it’s pretty interesting..but u have to pretty much multi-task…control the main sheet (the rope to tighten/slacken the main sail), control the rudder, watch the direction u going n where wind coming from..n trying not to capsize…suggestions for good anti seasick medicine..pls tell me =)

Went for geopolitics lecture @ 4pm today with a heavy heart..i mean, who wouldnt be sianz to noe he/she got a 4pm-8pm lecture…LT wasnt very crowded..less than 100 ppl? n i realised i got 2 ang moh lectures..so hopes abit up…haha! n the lecturer today, james sidaway..he’s from uk..n he’s very very dynamic…n clear voice..it’s the kind u noe…who can make u interested in watever he’s saying no matter how boring n dry the topic is..haha! geopolitics is interesting to me, but i was worried bout the heavy reading list..but hmm..i think to have a lecturer like him would inspire me to piah for this course…btw..he got applauded @ the end of lect..6.30pm..n he was pleasantly surprised =) Compare him to my econs lecturer..1st lect of the morning..n so boring liaoz..monotone voice..n speaks kind of slowly…(after his past students complaints of him being a machine gun..rapid fire voice n slides) now too slow! n u noe he refuses to put notes n slides on ivle..so we have to copy every shit he flashes Sys down in library today, heard was a virus called blaster32 causing trouble n my home pc kana too…hai..but i managed to clear it quickly…bought a lousy headset for pc today to talk to amanda via msn voice chat.but quality abit lan4… i think i gonna get laptop..hate to be Q-ing to use a pc @ cblc when ineed one…figure it’s a good investment too…=) toshiba m100 or ibm r40…decisions decisions…haha!

I kicked off the day with a bang, by waking up @ 8.15am for an 8am lecture..opened my eyes n panicked for like 0.00000000000333 seconds..then started to think wanna pon the lecture or not. Decided eventually to give the lecturer some face ( haha!) n went there, reached @ 9am.. think i didn’t miss much..ultra boring..the usuals lah…intro talk..blah… Stats lecture was better…like more gals too leh..more erm.. eyecandy..heh..i was sitting rite @ the corner n trying to absorb abit here n there…got to noe the gal sitting next to me..wanhui, a 1st yr stats major…ok one more new acquaintance…the more the better..more choices for ppl to sit with during meal times =) Tried to go cblc to print notes but super crowded, eventually managed to do so @ 4.5 cents per pg in library but i think this is not long term solution..think should be getting a laptop..i dun wanna be caught w/o a pc when i need one.. super siong day tml… 8-10am econs lect 10-12noon physics lect go home 4-8pm geopolitics.. =(

Well…only 7 hrs to go before my 1st lecture, siaoz liaoz! every monday i gonna have 8 am physics lecture, hai… Preparing for nus has been very different from prep for hwachong jc or rvhs.. 1stly, i’ve lost touch with the academic side of mine after serving the nation for 2.5 yrs, i think i really have to work hard from now on to catch up!

And all my stuff gone liaoz! like stationery, had to spend 22 bucks on getting a complete pencil case..y so expensive..have to blame the picky me, like die die only use pilot shaker pencil n g-tec pens. then must oso buy writing paper, files..blah!

nus really doesnt spoonfeed us ah..1stly, they let us fight each other like mad dogs for modules, bid n bid…then all the lect notes must self service..go print out on own…so mafan..haiyah…

List of modules i’m doing this sem PC1141 PHYSICS I PC1142 PHYSICS II ST1131 INTRODUCTION TO STATISTICS EC1310 ESSENTIALS OF ECONOMICS GEK1002 GEOPOLITICS GEK2003 GOVT & POLITICS OF SINGAPORE

National day’s just over… met up with the guys earlier… we were deciding where to go to see fireworks..then decided on sheares bridge… the only way up was via this long ramp, ran up like 400m..madness..by the time were there, already panting like shit.. but it’s worth it i tell u…we had a superb view of the fireworks display =)

NUS is supposed to be a new start for me in terms of inter-personal r/s..esp in hunting for Ms Right.. but i dunno if i’m suay or wat, but the gals whom i’m interested to noe better are all attached…man! suay i tell u…haha! o well..see how as time goes by..

I tot i was getting over amy, but i met her when she was having her orientation on monday…n i realised i’m still very far from my goal.. saw her for 30 mins n i think i’m still long way to go from moving on..

Amanda’s seems a nice gal, but some things are holding me back from getting myself to be committed to her now..1stly i havn’t met her b4, it’s just a net/fone relationship..n 2ndly it’s gonna be a long dist one since she’s studying in sydney..3rdly i dun believe she has gotten over her just-ended r/s.. i think i shall just keep my promise to her that if both of us are still single by the time she comes back for vacation in dec, we would work on our r/s..

NUS rag day was yest, and man..it’s really impressive..sci fac float we tot pretty got standard…esp our mountain sideprops..which are covered with gold foil n standing ard 4m tall…i tell u, them standing n reflecting the morning sun’s rays…really impressive… but i guess the halls’ floats really stole the show…theme of this yr’s rag is Faces, but according to seniors, the halls every yr can come up with like godzilla fighting some other monster…n the mechanism damn hiong too..like the dragon then can rise up…open it’s wings n move its head… Or the horse that stands up on its hind legs n kicks its fore legs… =) Abit sad that bizad swept 7 awards incl the challenge shield…wat to do…they too powerful esp for flag day collection… but still, science fac won 2..best float presentation n lowest cost… i can see the seniors..some of them were crying…i think it’s the hard work over the past 3 mths that all of us put in to make sci rag a bloody success!

Trilogy Cheer STAND UP! BE PROUD! SAY YOUR NAME! OUT LOUD! WE ARE FROM! SCI FAC! MANI MANI SCI FAC OLE OLE! CHI CHI WA WA SCI FAC SCI FAC! CHI CHI WA WA SCI FAC SCI FAC! SCI FAC! KING KING KIANG KIANG! SCI FAC! KING KING KIANG KIANG! LAI JI LEH AH SART SART SART! LAI NENG LEH AH ARH ARH ARH LAI SA LEH AH PUI AH PUI AH SART SART SART!! ADIJI ADIJI AH OH AH! ADIJI ADIJI ZIM BOH BA! AH OH AH! ZIM BOH BA! SCI FAC SCI FAC SAR SAR SART!!!!

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Woke up this mornign to sgp’s 38th birthday…wow we’ve really come a long way from “a small fishing village to a metropolitian city” List of famous figures to thank: Sang Nila Utama for founding Temasek Sir Stamford Raffles for founding Singapore Lt Gen Yamashita for invading us n showing the brits how to fight a war properly (i dun condone the jap atrocities) David Marshall, 1st chief minister for leading a often fruitless political battle with the brits for sgp to become self-govt Lee Kuan Yew for being there to lead us all these yrs..without him, we will definitely not be where we are today Last but not least, the SARS warriors who led the nation in fighting the new enemy.. w/o their sacrifices (for some of them, losing their lives) we would not have been able to see the daylight @ the end of the long long tunnel